Fefe Dobson - Don't Let It Go To Your Head

I remember always listening to this while I was with him, right now I am so angry because I think about what we could have had and how he threw all that away. I know he tried to make up for it but it was to late, I wanted to believe he could make it all better by being around more, but there was already way to much damage done. His lies took over the relationship and made it impossible to love him again. I get so angry at times and I just want to cry from the pain he has caused me but I don't I just smile and think of something else. He will never know how much I wanted to be with him, he can say that he loves me and that he only wanted me but deep down he never loved me enough to just be with me. I was never enough, I wasn't good enough for him. I will be more than enough for someone some day. D was my all when I was with him, I held the love I had for him above anything else. So to know that it meant nothing to him as he went behind my back and talked to the entire world hurts me deeply. I remember falling in love with him when he was in college and working a loser job, I stuck by his side when he dropped out. I never cared about what he did for a living as long as I had him and he told me he loved me. Everything changed when he started making more money, he became a completely different person. He wasn't the sweet guy I once knew anymore, he only cared about money money money. Well now I hope his money is telling him " I love you" because I no longer will. It breaks my heart knowing that I gave everything I could to make him happy but he decided it wasn't good enough and started talking to other men. He could have at least had the balls to tell me he wasn't happy and that he wanted to see other people. He is a coward and not a real man, I see him in a completely different way now. I now see that we were never meant to be together forever because we are two different types of people. He needs someone who only thinks about making money and I need someone who values life, love and happiness over material things. D was only meant to be in my life to show me how to NOT love someone, I will take my experience with D and use it to love someone else truly UNCONDITIONALLY. I know I will be happy someday, and that helps me get up and face the days as they come.