No love in my life

I hate that I can't trust any men right now, I see a lot of great guys and have talked to a few as well but everytime something in the back of my head says "don't trust them, its only a matter of time" so I just politely decline any invites. I'm just not ready and I've also got my apprenticeship to concentrate on. My friend from work said he wanted to try and hook me up with one of his friends from work but I just don't have the time, money, or the trust for that. I really appreciate him trying to help my single situation but for now I'll just have to turn my lonelyness into something positive. I see myself moving away from this town once I'm done with my apprenticeship, I want to stay with the shop for a while. I hope they open one up in my town by the time I'm done with my training, the 20 min drive to and from Odessa is long. Love will have to wait, oh and besides the men are sure to be much better when I move away.

Hate this

I'm sick, in the middle of a fucking drought I'm sick. WTF!!!! Anyways I had to take a day off rom the shop because I can't be sick and working around people with fresh tattoos because I could spread it to them. I don't want to get the other apprentices sick either. I'm taking meds right now and hoping that I'm all better by tomorrow because I don't want to miss another day at the shop.