Sunday, January 20, 2013

Day off

I didn't want to wake up today, just to many problems to think about. My car is a piece of shit and I need to get it to another town so my brother can look at it and possibly fix it but I can't drive it nor do I have the money for a tow. I have other bills I need to pay that are getting close to their due date and I'm trying to save every penny I have just to make it. I'm trying very hard not to give up but it's getting harder and harder everyday. My roommates girlfriend has a vehicle but I don't like to ask for her to drive me anywhere because she is pregnant and needs her rest. I'm working hard to buy another car while my co workers just bullshit away. I hate that they rely on me for rides. I feel like telling them to get their own cars so I don't have to feel like I am their messenger boy. The nice guy in me is slowly stepping back from the front lines and someone less nice is stepping up, I don't want to be selfish but they also need to know when to grow up and stand on their own two feet. I'm tired of having to always be responsible and make sure everything is ok. I'm done