So its been a few days

Well we somehow worked things out and are just going to tkae it SLOW!!! I almost lost my chance with R because of my insecurities that I developed while I was with D. I believed that I wasn't worth waiting for or even pursuing by another man. Thanks to R's talks I realized that in order to make my life the way I want it I have to be the one to make the choices. So I told him that I would like to wait till Oct 31st to make my mind up if he has a spot in my life. If I don't make a choice by then I told him that he can just walk away from me with no remorse because we agreed that 4 months is plenty of time to make up my mind. So far everything has been starting good, oh and we are going to abstain from sex. We told each other that if we make it official that we will be completely monogomous and celebrate with the most intimate of actions, SEX!! So until then we are going to just date and wait, so this past Saturday he took me out to eat and to the movies. I had the best fucking date ever, and he is so fun to be around. Oh did I mention that our date was 12 hours long, yeah it didn't even feel like that because I was having such a great time with him. Even though we agreed to not have sex that doesn't mean we can't kiss, and man there was a lot of kissing lol. We went to the drive in and watched Fast Five and Brides Maids. Well we just wanted to see Brides Maides so while Fast Five was playing we were just talking and well kissing the whole time. Yeah best movie ever lol. Oh if you haven't seen Brides Maids then you need to see it because its fucking hilarious, there were a lot of people with kids who watched Fast Five. Well wen Brides Maids came on all those people with kids left in the first 5 mins because it was so vulger and raunchy lol. So my kind of movie and also R's kind as well, we were laughing so hard during the whole movie. I highly recommend it. After the movies ended we went to a quiet place to talk some more till about 3 am and then he took me home. I so didn't want to leave his side but know that I can't afford to jump into a relationship so fast. Its going to be worth it to take it slow and build it up. Going to spend the weekend with him, so excited for that!!!! Love them kisses and that smile.