Didn't think I would be ok

I honestly did think that I'd be able to funtion today since I got my heart trampled on by D but you know what. I'm having a fucking awesome day lol. It hurt at first and felt like every breath was going to be my last but after a good sleep and some time around my awesome shop family I started feeling happy and realized that if D has moved on then I as least know that there isn't any false hope. I don't have to keep thinking if he's going to be with me now, he's moved on and happy so why should I keep dwelling on being single. I may not have a man but I'm fucking happy and thats all that matters. I love myself enough to just keep going, if D does decide to be with me then thats fucking great but if he doesn't then thats fucking great too :)

Comparison

Seems like I compare every man that I like to my X, idk if that's fair but its what I tend to do. Right now nobody is good enough for me, then again I can easily not be good enough for them. Its a fine line that I walk along, seems like I'm destined to fail if I keep measuring them up to the greatest loves of my life. If you know how I feel please tell me how you got through this. I need some help any help.