Promises or bigger and better....still waiting for that lol

So my boss has been telling me that I'm going to be getting more machine time when the new shipment of supples comes in. Well I have my doubts about that concidering that I have to pay $20 everytime I want to tattoo on someone when we give out free tattoos everyday. I don't see why I have to pay when I'm trying to be an artist to bring money into his shop and ppl he doesn't even know get free tattoos. I don't get it but oh well right. I just want to tattoo and live my life, don't know if I'm going to stay with the shop after I'm given the ok that I passed my tattooing test. I want to try and live my life around to world tattooing and learning about the worlds tattoos. Looking at that lifestyle I don't see much time for a loved one, its a sacrifice I'm willing to make. I have been wanting to get in contact with my ex since I got back into town from my trip to Brownsville but I haven't, he's got a man and clearly is over the whole idea of being with me so I must truck on right? Talking to someone but its nothing serious, don't know if I really want it to be because of where I see my life going. Time will tell right? I have been asking myself if D ever wanted to get back together with me would I go for it? Sometimes the answer is Yes and sometimes its No, I love him and when we split I wasn't the one who wanted to be apart. I may have ended it because he fucked up but not because I didn't want to be with him anymore. I'll just continue to live my life and just focus mainly on my tattooing passion.