I don't know if its something I did but Kuma and I have been kinda bumping heads. I had a bad day at work at he tried counseling me instead of just listening and being my support. I told him I'd txt him later bc I was frustrated and I think it clicked that I need his ears more than his mouth. I want to pretend everything is ok but I don't think it is. I'm not used to so many emotions to deal with. he is way to serious, I tried giving him a funny ha ha compliment tonight and he made it seem like I was degrading him. I said he's a sexy trophy bf meaning I think he's fucking hot and I'd be honored to be seen with him, but he took it to literal. yeah I get it your older than me but that doesn't mean you need to always try and guide me when I say something, by doing that it turns into this whole creepy father Son thing. I don't know what tomorrow holds, it could be bad or it could be good you never know. One thing I do know is that I want to be with him bc I see that he's worth it. I've never met another man like him. I have a place for him in my heart but there is still that uncertainty in the back of my mind. I'm always cautious when I'm dealing with matters of the heart. I haven't heard from him since I was helping my bro around 7:30, I don't know if he needs space or what. I left him a few voxer messages but no reply, my mind starts racing with so many answers. Guess I'm just preparing myself for him to leave like the rest. I'm also not going to allow myself to continue with a hopeless relationship if I see it turning into one. I'm trying I really am. The future is unknown at this time.
