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Ever just wanna go deaf for a day so the noise of life will let you think?  Need another vacation,  where to??  Might just go alone this time.

Damn

Ppl see me and I'm all smiles but honestly inside I'm freaking out. I've got 3 days to make rent and then more for my bills. I would have had it all taken care of if the biker rally wasn't such a bust. I've never felt like such a failure till now, all I wanna do is drive out till the middle of a field and yell till I can't yell anymore. I really haven't cried but now I do.

Been a while

Haven't been able to post lately bc I've been busy dealing with other adventures. I don't think I have time for love or even to like someone right now. Good news is that I've got betty rolling and I'm moving in with my best friends. I see my family every now and then but not much just mainly my mom. I feel lost, like I don't know where I'm going. I took a good drive to my moms the other day and just drove and thought.  I made it this far without any man, I got all the money for betty and pushed myself to struggle and learn to tattoo. I got me here without a bf. So I asked myself, do I really need a man right now?  Yeah it would be great to not go to sleep alone every night but I just don't wanna deal with emotional drama. The only person I see myself with and not losing any drive for my tattooing is D, but that in a nutshell is a mystery. I don't know if he wants to be around long term. Time will tell right?  Just going to concentrate on my life and if he feels like he wants to be apart of my life that's on him.