Yeah it's been a few days sorry I started working on my Betty and didn't remember to write part 2. After the dance we went back to the camper and he made a really good chicken dish, I like his spur of the moment cooking skills. our first night in bed together was well magnificent! I love his furry chest and cuddling up with him. He is very sweet and gentle, makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world. The way he kisses and touches me makes my heart race, so let's just say our first night was perfect ;) . then waking up next to him justifying that it wasn't all a dream started the day perfectly. We then had breakfast that Kuma made, I'll admit he basically did everything the while trip I asked if he needed me to do anything but he said no. think all I was able to do was stir gravy and throw some trash ha ha. I think after that it's kinda a blur of pure happiness. I love the way he kisses me and makes me feel and we connect so well, I find myself opening up and talking to him about things I'd normally keep to myself. When I'm with him I feel normal and not like some outcast for loving cartoons and video games still. He is by far the most beautiful person I've ever seen inside and out. in the short amount of time I've been with him he has opened my eyes and shown me that I'm worthy of happiness and someone who isn't going to cheat on me. we watched movies and played video games together. He is even apart of a gamer group back in his town, how fucking awesome is that right. He has the most beautiful eyes that I could get used to seeing everyday. When he hugs me and squeezes me in his arms and pulls me in for a kiss I just melt. I've let go of my past and moved on from the pain, I have had time to heal and love myself and realize that I am happy alone. With that being said he makes me happier than I already am so why would I ever wanna let that go? I wanted to shower with him but sadly the shower was way to small to fit us both. next time we will for sure! Did I mention that he looks fucking amazing naked but that's all you get bc he's mine to look at I'm not sharing lol. My walls are crumbling down for him and I'm I'm with that. The hardest part was when we had to part ways. I didn't want to leave him, I almost shed a few tears but I'm not ready to let myself be that weak just yet. We have agreed that what we have is worth hanging on and trying a long distance relationship, I'm deeply committed to giving it a try and I know he is too. nothing has changed since I got back, he still txt and calls me and we Skype when we can..that shows me that he really is in it. Already trying to plan our next trip, it looks like we might not be together till end of march or mid April but you know what they say right..."absence makes the heart grow fonder" I dream of him and he is in my mind and heart throughout the days, I had a friend tell me that I'm not a dater but more of a true relationship guy. He's right bc all I wanna do is share my life with someone who supports me and I support them. Don't think I can ever go back to my past even if it came knocking on my door bc of my Kuma, he is my future.
