Vacation

I'm back from my trip to Brownsville, I had a good time. I didn't expect the ocean to be so fucking salty ha ha, I got a huge mouth full and almost threw up and my eyes were on fire for a bit. Didn't see any sharks yay!!! I wouldn't mind going back for another visit. Now onto J, I like him a lot but I just don't see us continuing on with a relationship. I just don't see myself moving to brownsville or settling down. Having a bf would mean I would either sacrifice my dream of moving around as a tattoo artist or break a guys heart. I honestly want a relationship but don't want anything to get in the way of my apprenticeship, love can wait lol.

4 anxious days left

I've got 4 of the most anxious days left before I hop on the bus to go see J, I really hope the weather is nice when we are out and about. I feel like I might be getting a little sick so I'm going to be taking some meds to fight off anything that might try to ruin my time in Brownsville, Tx. I like that he has been talking his friends ears off about me, I just hope I live up to their expectations. Either way I'm just going to be me. Its going to be great laying next to someone I connect with on so many levels, who knows he just might be my new man but that's getting ahead of myself. I am keeping an open mind about things though. I have very few days with him and so many things I want to see. There is : the beach, hiking, the zoo, the mall, bars. I know for sure that I want to go to the beach because I've never been on one so that is a must and the rest will just be spontaneous I guess. I told him that since he still has to work Friday that we'll just have movie night at his house and make food. I'll cook if he wants a taste of my cooking.

less than a week away YAY!!!!!

So excited that I'm going to meet J in 6 days, ready to see how we are together. If things go well I'm willing to invest the time and emotion into him. On another note, we lost our senior artist today. Its hard to make money at a new shop especially in Odessa. They should have started the shop off in Midland, then we wouldn't have lost anyone. I'm going to prepare for the worst and get my art supplies and portfolio from the shop before I go to visit J and see what another shop thinks about my work. The apprenticeship isn't great, they have no grasp of how to make it work. Texas is not like Colorado.

Commission

So up until two days ago I got put on the payroll and can now get commission. I made $20 the other night and a few tonight. Its not much but hey when you go from 0 to something its fucking great. I'm working on getting more machine time so i can achieve one of my dreams.

7 more days

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO happy that I finally have my tickets to go see J on the 22nd. 7 more days left. Anxious to finally meet the man I've been talking, e-mailing, and txting for the longest time. Can't wait to give him a big hug and feel him against me. On cloud nine seriously!!!! I love you guys I'll keep you posted on how it turns out.

Best time of my nights

My phone was on the brink of getting cut off last night bc I wasn't able to raise the money at the shop to pay it so I spent almost 3 hours on the phone with J before it was cut off. I love how we never really run out of things to say. So excited to go visit him, I will admit that I have been super giddy since we've planned this get together weekend. I was telling my mother about it and she's already jumping farther ahead than J and me, talking about oh if you like him are you going to move in with him. I was like "damn woman your just ready to get rid of me huh" . She just wants me to be happy, but not going to rush things. Its taken since about december for J and I to plan a meeting so who knows how long it will be before I move with him if we hit things off.

Headed in a great direction

So I've been enjoying the past few days talking with J, literally every night besides tonight we've talked for 2-3 hours on the phone. I have grown to really like him and see a great side of him. So very excited to go visit him in South Texas, I'm going to truly give him the chance he deserves. I will always love my x D but its time to try and move on. I'm happy he never gave up on trying to be with me, its paying off for him.

Taking care of the kids

Taking care of M's kids so she can make money at the shop, yeah its not my thing lol. Love them but I'm going to love giving them back even more. Wow I just changed her little boy's daiper and man this kid can shit.

Moving on

So I am going to take the leap and trust a guy I've been talking to. Going to go visit him on the 22nd for the weekend. I'm really excited to meet him, never seen the beach before. I have put this guy through the ringer and then some through my whole time knowing him and he's still been chasing me so that says something to me. I seriously didn't think his lifestyle and mine would be compatable but the more and more I look at it I realize that it doesn't matter. He completely accepts who and how I am with my tattooing, doesn't mind that I get tattoos. I am going to see how things go on the visit and if all goes well I feel like I could invest more time into him. Oh btw I love talking to him on the phone, never really have a dull moment.