Yay we are going to Balmorhea, TX

D's family lives in Balmorhea, TX and we are going to see them and hopefully its hot enough Thursday for us to go swimming. I love swimming in the water there because its so clear and fresh, I have never been able to swim all the way down to the bottom or even close enough to see the water coming out from the spring. They say you can see the sand bubbling up from where the water is coming out of the ground, one day though lol. D doesn't really like to leave me alone because there are usually a lot of hot bears there and I can't help but look and appreciate them ha ha, but its just looking for me. I can't wait to be able to tan and not be so blah. I wish D would push aside his fear and show me some affection, not saying to grope me and have a full on make out session in front of everyone...just hold my hand or even pay attention to me and not act like I'm just your friend. It really hurts my feelings but what am I gonna do, start a fight and potentially break up and be stranded in Balmorhea...I don't think so!!!! Even though it always hurts my feelings I can't waste a good relationship because of that. One day he will gather the courage and hold my hand in public and tell me he loves me and on that day I will know that he truly means it from the bottom of his heart. If your not willing to go out of your comfort zone for the one you love then your not fully committed to them, I pray he will come to be the man I need him to be in time. So for now I'll act content with being pushed aside for a few days while he spends time with his family and speak Spanish while I sit and act like I even listen to what they are saying. Good thing I can take my laptop and get online. Well I'll try posting up some picks of Balmorhea when I get back or while I'm in Balmorhea, so hope to get to use my underwater camcorder tomorrow so I can post some underwater pics for you guys. Oh I almost forgot, thank you everyone who reads my blog even though all I do is nag lol. You make my words mean something and don't make me feel like its a waste of time. Even though I cannot hear you or see you it feels nice to be acknowledged.