Constant Reminder

I often look at tattoo machine kits to help remind me that I have a goal and need to do what I can to reach it.

What keeps me alive?

I live to keep my mother and father's blood alive, I live on to make them proud and not regret anything. I know my mother is going through a hard time right now and my father does not say what is hurting him the most. I get more out of those awkward silences than I could from their actual words, I can only imagine what they are feeling let alone thinking. I see that my mother is tired of fighting so long and having to be the strength of our family all the time, I see that my father sometimes hides behind his beer bottle because he is the second rock that holds the family together. I don't know what I would do if either of them were to leave me alone in this world. I hate to think about the worst case scenario but I can't help it, every time I see them I want to tell them I love them and that I want to know how they feel but I don't because I see how hard they work at keeping it hidden from my niece and siblings. Sometimes I just want to cry non stop and just break down and just give up, I don't know what i can do to help them other than just stand on the sidelines and pray for them. I know we are not the typical family where I can just cry on their shoulder about this, I just can't even though that is what I want to do. I remember having some special times with my dad when I was growing up, I remember we would talk some late nights and just be completely serious and sometimes cry together. I remember feeling like I could tell my father anything and everything. Another thing I never thought about was how hard it was to leave my mother when I left to live in Dallas, TX. I remember being completely fine the days before I left, but when I hugged her in those final moments before I set off I just didn't want to let go of her. I remember trying to not forget her perfume and trying to burn her eyes into my memory so I could always have them with me wherever I went. I thought to myself, "if it hurts this much to let go when I am moving to another town, how in the hell am I going to survive when she is gone for good?" I hope that day does not come soon. I will chant and pray my ass off for that day to be in the far far future, I want her to see my nieces grow up and see me finally get married to the man I am suppose to be with. I don't want to go to my parents house and only be able to say hi to only one parent. I love you mom and dad!!! With all the power I have within my body and soul I will give it my all to make it all okay, I promise!!!!

Swallow Tattoos

I have been noticing that a lot of people have been sporting swallow tattoos, I like seeing that they are becoming so beautifully artistic. I just don't know if most people know the back round of the swallow, so I looked it up and came up with some interesting facts about the pretty little bird. Before their widespread tattoo spree they started on a ship called "The Swallow" with a few bad sailors. There were seven sailors that were going to commit a mutiny on the ship and the only way they could identify themselves from the rest of them was from their swallow tattoos on their chests. After that it evolved into something completely different, sailors who would go on long voyages that made it to 5,000 Nautical Miles would get one swallow on their chest and after another 5,000 Nautical Miles they would generally get one on the opposite side of their chest. If they choose to get more swallows after another 5,000 Nautical Miles that was their choice, also the sailors believed that if they were to fall overboard and drown that the swallow tattoos would carry their souls up to heaven.

They represent love, care, and affection towards family and friends showing the loyalty of the person always returning home. These days the swallow tattoo can have many more meanings that only the bearer can say, thanks to the internet the swallow tattoo has become one of the most popular tattoos.

In some parts of the world if you get a swallow tattoo on your fist is symbolizes that you are indeed a great fighter. I'm not sure if I will get a swallow tattoo but who knows, might immortalize my mother in a swallow tattoo. ;)

Dance Central

I had so much fun with my sister yesterday playing Dance Central, she has played it a little more than me so she obviously beat me more. I like the songs they have, some old school and some hard ones lol. I want to unlock everything, Hmm wonder how long that would take to complete the game. I am trying to get my babe to plat but he doesn't want to :( One of these days he will play!!

Stuck in a Rut

I feel like I am stuck in a small rut, I just don't feel like drawing lately. I still have the passion inside of me but just can't seem to get it out on paper. I feel as though I have all the energy taken out of me, I can't find a job and that is taking a lot out of me because if I can't find a job then I can't get the money I need to pay for machines or inks. I guess I need to just draw my frustrations out and put more focus on finding ANY job that will help me get somewhere.

Ships of the Tattoo World

First up on my list of tattoos are the mystical and very classic ship tattoo. I am not to sure if I will ever be getting one of these tattoos frankly because I am not into the ocean nor have I ever been on the ocean/sea before. On the other hand I would love to work on my ship drawings especially old time wooden ships like pirate ships, this comes from my anime addiction. I have recently been watching One Piece and its about a young boy names Money D. Luffy who's goal is to be the King of the Pirates, he and his small but strong crew travel the rough pirate and marine infested oceans and seas on a very interesting pirate ship. The ship itself is not very detailed like the tattoos you would see on Marines or Sea going people, but it has been enough of an inspiration to make me want to work on my drawings. I have seen pirate ships, battle ships, yachts, and sail boats...I'd have to say that the pirate ships and Haunted ships catch my attention more mainly because I like the darker side of the history of ships. I also want to mention another anime "Soul Eater" where they mention the Black Dragon Nidhogg, I like how they incorporate this Norse dragon into being a haunted demon ship that takes souls of the people it encounters. I also like the story of The Flying Dutchman and many other Haunted ships. Not to forget the pirate ships that are famous through our history like Queen Anne's Revenge which was captained by the famous Blackbeard and the ship of Calico Jack the great The William.

The Flying Dutchman

Going Mary from One Piece

Nidhogg from Soul Eater

Queen Anne's Revenge

The William

Well I think its time I started posting more than just "ME"

I feel like I want to start posting about tattooing, I have such a high passion for this wonderful art that I wish to share my enthusiasm with everyone that takes a look at my blog. So here it goes, I think I might post once a week about a certain type of tattooing like special techniques or genres like Ships or Japanese Geisha styling.