Merry X-mas

I had a wonderful time spending X-mas with my family. I am glad that the whole family is here, my two older brothers and sister and finally back together under one roof along with their own families. I loved playing Loteria with them and taking my sister's money lol. I do miss D and am kinda hurt that he didn't stay with me, I am feeling really sad and low right now. I figured that he would have at least called me more or even just stayed with me. I just feel like shit right now, and very lonely. Just feel like going home and crying myself to sleep, don't know if I have ever felt let down like this in a long time. Just want to go home and forget the bad part of the day, I don't know if D can make up for this ever. Honestly I feel like the only thing I can do right now to make myself feel better is to just cut the pain away.