Hmm..... It's been a while since I've posted anything

I'm proud to say that I have been building a very good portfolio for myself and I have been in a very good relationship for almost 8 months now. I'm very much in love with him, lets call him "J". Going to the body art expo in Houston next month and then a 4 day vacation with my babe for his bday. Life is good:) 

Life is good

Can't complain to much about my life at the moment , I have been going to the doctor for a bad stomach problem but other than that life is good. I have a bf that actually is working out, hope writing a out it isn't going to jinx it. I decided to mix it up a bit and go for a slightly younger guy this time and it's working out so far. The passion is there and also the connection, work is also very good. I'm glad I can afford to pay all my bills with no insurance. Been going to midland to visit the family more, like I said before my life is good right now. I'm working on making it even better, this year is my year to really step it up.

Been sick

Been sick but I'm slowly coming back to life :) so I started dating a guy and things were looking up when just my luck they took a turn for the worst like always ha ha. I should have not let my guard down so easily, I just see that me and him are on very different levels. I give 110% and he gave me 10%. I'm not mad just not happy at the possible outcome of this relationship. I knew there was a risk getting involved with another guy, there is always a risk right? If it ends then so be it, just life's way of letting me know I can't find love in the shit hole of a town. Good thing I didn't fall in love.

Tired of carrying everyone on my back

I have to take responsibility for a lot of stuff I don't even need to but I do because nobody else is stepping up to do them. I'm tired and close to just saying "fuck it do it yourself". I don't say much, I'm more of an observer. I've seen some pretty bad choice coming from some of the people around me and I want to say something but at the same time I don't feel like I have the right to say something. The way I see it is that of you don't care enough to help yourself I shouldn't go out of my way to help you out, if I see that you want change I don't mind helping out. I have major bills that I need to pay and so I work hard and make the money and save, others have even greater responsibility on their hands and don't save or plan anything. I have a lot of love in my heart but little compassion for those who expect others to pick up their slack.

Sold for $900 to the man with a creepy wife

Finally sold my crap mobile also known as my explorer. Gonna have to wait till Monday probably to get a newer car, I don't know if I should go to a dealership or buy off Craigslist again. I saw a nice dodge stealth for sale and I think it my be my brothers old stealth he sold a few years ago. It would be great to have it back in the family but All Mine he he I've always loved his stealth

Valentines day is fast approaching

I spent thanksgiving, Xmas , and New Years alone last year and I hope that's not the case this year. I've realized that I'm gonna be in Odessa for the next 4-5 years till I move to another town or state so I have time to build a relationship and have my special someone. I just can't find someone who has a bad ass life like I do, and it's not like I'm putting myself up on a pedestal, I just am awarded certain freedoms that most guys aren't. I can stay up at off hours of the night and party when I want because I don't work until 2 in the afternoon. I go to conventions in other states and I'd like my partner to go with me.

Made it through the chaos

I had a very successful day off today, I cleaned a bit and got to work on the explorer even when I didn't know what to do. I had to call my brother several times to ask about what to do, he's a very good brother because even though he was busy he took the time for my phone calls and walked me through my problems or gave me several solutions. After some money spent and a few trips to the auto parts store I fixed my u joints and fixed my muffler too. The explorer still drives like a dying horse but it gives me a little relief I need right now, because I need a car and while I'm saving to buy another car I can drive this bucket of bolts and sell it. I've come to a decision that I may only get around 800-1200 on it depending on the buyer, my brother said if I could come up with 1500-2000 he will loan me 1000 to buy a nice car for myself. I'm really counting on it, I move into the new apt next Monday and I want to be able to not worry a out a crappy car giving out on me. I miss trusting my car to go out of town in.