Day off

I didn't want to wake up today, just to many problems to think about. My car is a piece of shit and I need to get it to another town so my brother can look at it and possibly fix it but I can't drive it nor do I have the money for a tow. I have other bills I need to pay that are getting close to their due date and I'm trying to save every penny I have just to make it. I'm trying very hard not to give up but it's getting harder and harder everyday. My roommates girlfriend has a vehicle but I don't like to ask for her to drive me anywhere because she is pregnant and needs her rest. I'm working hard to buy another car while my co workers just bullshit away. I hate that they rely on me for rides. I feel like telling them to get their own cars so I don't have to feel like I am their messenger boy. The nice guy in me is slowly stepping back from the front lines and someone less nice is stepping up, I don't want to be selfish but they also need to know when to grow up and stand on their own two feet. I'm tired of having to always be responsible and make sure everything is ok. I'm done

Downsides to every passion in life

I've dedicated my life to tattooing, but it's can't all be happy times. There are those slow times that make or break an artist, the bills don't stop coming and the money isn't rolling in like it used to. The weather of the day greatly affect how my days go too. To make things worse my car broke down and I don't have the $$ to fix it. It's days like these that make me want to be home and just sleep till it's over. It's my roommates birthday today and I can't even buy him a drink. I'm not happy with my work and the progress I'm making. I'm trying to stand tough but life keeps slowly chipping my walls down. My biggest fear in life is that I'll wake up a failure in life. I don't want to be a small town tattoo artist who does half ass tattoos, I have one life and one shot at making it. I won't give up on my dreams, the strength is there I just have to be brave enough to find it and keep going.

Colder weather

Not a big fan of cold weather but it's oddly not as cold now that there is a little snow than when it was just cold. The shop slowed down a bit but not to a stand still. Just hoping this weather doesn't freeze me before it gets warm. Also I haven't been talking to any guys bc I'm just focusing on me, been sick with a cold and strep throat :( I like it, I notice that I don't pick up my phone as much anymore Gonna focus on my artwork more now

Just realized that sometimes being single blows

Sometimes I see happy couples and I want that, and then I realize I'm single. I do want someone special but I don't know if it's a good time to add someone to my life. I'm still trying to get my life sorted out and started. Some day ill have a partner by my side, just gonna built up my life to what I want. Is it wrong to wanna be successful and be able to take care of someone.

Happy new year kinda

I'm single and sick on New Years , good thing that's all that's wrong with this years start. I'm doing better at tattooing and my Piercings. I wanna travel soon, don't know where though. Going to take advantage of this freedom, maybe a few life experiences will make me a better person and a better lover.

Single by choice

So I decided I'm not ready for a relationship right now in my life bc I'm finding myself and starting my tattoo journey. I do want someone special but right now tattooing and piercing are my priorities , but doesn't mean I can't flirt right. Jake and I were talking the other day and we both came to a conclusion that I'm a free spirit and the who wants me has to fit into my life.

Alone by choice

I have been single for a good min now and I must say that I like it. I don't answer to anyone and I'm free to go and do whatever. I do feel lonely when I go to sleep and wake up in bed, I have been putting my foot down and realize that I need a bf that is in my world or art. He doesn't need to be a tattoo artist just into art and into the art world. I work crazy hours and can't wear myself thin trying to make time for him and work all the time it's either one or the other. I also got in touch with my old mma gym and I'm hoping to start training again. I went to see " here comes the boom" last night and the thrill and rush of mma woke back up inside me so I wanna get back into it and get fit.