Lately I haven't been feeling like myself, I feel a little depressed. I'm not motivated to do anything. I feel like crying for some reason but can't bc the one shoulder I felt comfortable crying on was D's and we all know he isn't here not does he really care to have me in his life anymore. I want to just drive out to the middle of nowhere and just till I can't tell anymore. I am tired of going everyday thinking about him and that I'm not by his side.
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Monday, January 16, 2012
Thinking a lot lately
Been thinking to myself and slow I'm beginning to not want a relationship with anyone even D. Focus on my life instead of someone else life. I want to move away and leave all this past behind.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
For a while there
I felt this with me and D would open back up bc we started texting more but guess that was just a fluke. So now it's time to be a big boy and realize that he might just like the attn from me while he's with his current guy. It's the same when I was with him and he would talk to other guys behind my back. My answer that I gave J is becoming to change more and more, if I find another guy and he actually sticks around idk if I'd choose D over the new guy. I don't want to be his back up if his man doesn't work out. I want to be the priority and if I'm not then I'll find someone who does make me his #1. Sad but can't wait forever for D to realize that I'm not going to be waiting forever or until he's done with his guy. If your reading this D I hope you make a choice soon bc later your decision won't matter. Don't live your life with regrets, if you love me come get me don't hesitate.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
I love them
I love my family but I'm not to happy to be back. I miss the quiet of j's apt. Going to focus of fixing my bronco and finding a room for rent, now that I have been reminded what it's like to have privacy I want it. Tired of never having a quiet moment to myself, I love them but I need my space. going to work hard to get myself out of my parents house.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Having a blast in Ga with J
Been having a great time with J, that's me with one of his boys Oliver. I'm going to be sad to leave him, still trying to figure out if there will be something more between us after these days are gone. I'm more than prepared to have a temp long distance relationship if he's willing to a well. I wouldn't have traveled this far if I didn't think I couldn't have something with him, but it's not just my decision now is it?
Friday, December 30, 2011
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