Promises or bigger and better....still waiting for that lol

So my boss has been telling me that I'm going to be getting more machine time when the new shipment of supples comes in. Well I have my doubts about that concidering that I have to pay $20 everytime I want to tattoo on someone when we give out free tattoos everyday. I don't see why I have to pay when I'm trying to be an artist to bring money into his shop and ppl he doesn't even know get free tattoos. I don't get it but oh well right. I just want to tattoo and live my life, don't know if I'm going to stay with the shop after I'm given the ok that I passed my tattooing test. I want to try and live my life around to world tattooing and learning about the worlds tattoos. Looking at that lifestyle I don't see much time for a loved one, its a sacrifice I'm willing to make. I have been wanting to get in contact with my ex since I got back into town from my trip to Brownsville but I haven't, he's got a man and clearly is over the whole idea of being with me so I must truck on right? Talking to someone but its nothing serious, don't know if I really want it to be because of where I see my life going. Time will tell right? I have been asking myself if D ever wanted to get back together with me would I go for it? Sometimes the answer is Yes and sometimes its No, I love him and when we split I wasn't the one who wanted to be apart. I may have ended it because he fucked up but not because I didn't want to be with him anymore. I'll just continue to live my life and just focus mainly on my tattooing passion.

Why is it that everytime i see a red ford i hope and pray its D? Still miss him a lot

Been a while since I have posted

Work is going great, so happy that I'm getting a vehicle. Its a red '82 Bronco 2. It needs some work but I'm willing to put in the time and money if it means I will have my own ride. Things in my personal life are ok, I'm no longer talking to J. I have been talking to someone else but don't think its going to go very far. I would like to have something but I look at my life and see that if I do get someone then I'd have to break their heart when I move away to tattoo in another town. I can't let anyone or anything get in the way of my tattooing. The old me would have just settled and gotten a shit job and been with whoever, not anymore. I love tattooing way to much to stop now. I'm hoping to get more machine time within the next few weeks.

Vacation

I'm back from my trip to Brownsville, I had a good time. I didn't expect the ocean to be so fucking salty ha ha, I got a huge mouth full and almost threw up and my eyes were on fire for a bit. Didn't see any sharks yay!!! I wouldn't mind going back for another visit. Now onto J, I like him a lot but I just don't see us continuing on with a relationship. I just don't see myself moving to brownsville or settling down. Having a bf would mean I would either sacrifice my dream of moving around as a tattoo artist or break a guys heart. I honestly want a relationship but don't want anything to get in the way of my apprenticeship, love can wait lol.

4 anxious days left

I've got 4 of the most anxious days left before I hop on the bus to go see J, I really hope the weather is nice when we are out and about. I feel like I might be getting a little sick so I'm going to be taking some meds to fight off anything that might try to ruin my time in Brownsville, Tx. I like that he has been talking his friends ears off about me, I just hope I live up to their expectations. Either way I'm just going to be me. Its going to be great laying next to someone I connect with on so many levels, who knows he just might be my new man but that's getting ahead of myself. I am keeping an open mind about things though. I have very few days with him and so many things I want to see. There is : the beach, hiking, the zoo, the mall, bars. I know for sure that I want to go to the beach because I've never been on one so that is a must and the rest will just be spontaneous I guess. I told him that since he still has to work Friday that we'll just have movie night at his house and make food. I'll cook if he wants a taste of my cooking.

less than a week away YAY!!!!!

So excited that I'm going to meet J in 6 days, ready to see how we are together. If things go well I'm willing to invest the time and emotion into him. On another note, we lost our senior artist today. Its hard to make money at a new shop especially in Odessa. They should have started the shop off in Midland, then we wouldn't have lost anyone. I'm going to prepare for the worst and get my art supplies and portfolio from the shop before I go to visit J and see what another shop thinks about my work. The apprenticeship isn't great, they have no grasp of how to make it work. Texas is not like Colorado.

Commission

So up until two days ago I got put on the payroll and can now get commission. I made $20 the other night and a few tonight. Its not much but hey when you go from 0 to something its fucking great. I'm working on getting more machine time so i can achieve one of my dreams.