Missing him

So I saw him on Sunday and ever since then I've been wanting to spend everyday with him but then again I like having to wait. Ugh Saturday hurry up and get here. So I promised R that I wouldn't watch the new Ep of Glee, because I was going to watch it with him this weekend. We have so much in common that its insane. I've had to reassure my sis and mom that I'm not rushing into anything, I told him that I need to wait and so far he's been super respectable towards my choices. Well only time will tell right? Well until then I'm going to get a job and get my tattooing refined, get a truck, get my own place. When I'm nice and set with my life then I'll be ready to have someone stand next to me in life.

Got some work lined up

So glad that I have finally gotten some work lined up. A little nervous but its what I need to get my name out there for even more clients. I'll post up some pictures when I do the tattoos.

Teddy Bear Time

Finally got him on my right leg, isn't he cute!!!

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What can I say, there are so many feelings that I want to express to the world right now. My life has taken such a different turn since I've left D. I can't believe he would do that to me, I gave him my entire world. I hope he can get his shit together before he breaks another heart. I've already kinda met someone already but don't want to rush into anything bc I don't want to get hurt and also I need time to heal from what D has done to me. I've explained my feelings toward this person and hope that he can understand what I'm going through. I like spending time with him but don't want him to be my excuse to not feel the pain of D's ways. I like that we have a whole lot in common and that he is so close with his friends and just very laid back, I will say that its not something that I'm used to. I'm used to being confined and not allowed to have friends. I know why now, bc D was worried that I would find out that he was talking to everyone and their mothers behind my back. I know my life will be beter without him but its still hurts to not be with him. I'm searching for jobs right now so that I can get my life together. I was talking to my best A and he told me that I never take the time to just get me right, I want to but I feel as though I might have pulled R in to deep already to not hurt him. I have to man up and let him know that even though we want to go full force into each other (so to speak lol) that I am going to need time to just be single. Its not like I want to date anyone else, I just need to live for myself for a while. I have no job, no vehicle, no money...yeah that looks like a hot mess right there. I'm in no position to be dating anyone right now. I just hope we can still be friends and hopefully one day when I'm able to stand on my own two feet we can be together.

Done

So I finally had enough, I caught him. He messed up and got found out. I can't believe he would do such a thing, but if I think about it. Its not that surprising so me. D has done this all before and this is the last straw, well that's what I said last time. I'm hoping to finally make it without him and move on with my life. I had plans to make a happy life with him but guess he didn't see it the same way. I'm going to be successful in my life and he is going to regret what he did for the rest of his life. I am strong and fully capable of being happy without him, but not going to say that its going to be easy. I'll keep you all updated now that I have more time to update lol, be safe everyone.

Found a hot bear on a blog I follow !!!!!!!!!!

He is so FUCKING HOT!!!!!!!! Just my perfect type!!!!

Best Mothers Day

Had a great mothers day with all the mothers in my life. Oh did I mention that my bro cooked up some awesome crawfish. I love them, and that's not the end of it. Along with it being Mother's Day yesterday it was my cousin's bday too. So what kind of cousin would I be if I didn't get him a cake, well just because I haven't seen him in a while I decided that after he blew out his candle he was so eager to taste it that he shouldn't have to wait for a plate. So he ended up getting a face full of cake lol. I missed him a lot, we were besties back in the day. Always riding around having fun or getting into trouble. We went to his mom's house, it was a sad part of our day. It hasn't been a while since she has passed away, I could still feel her while I was in that house. We managed to find an old photo of her and my cousin covered in dirt. My other aunt tore up the place and left it looking like shit, I couldn't believe how you can do that to your sister's house and not care. There is an old truck my aunt gave to my cousin and he told me and my dad that we could have it. The thing is that we think she took the title thinking she was going to sell it for herself. Not only do I want that truck so I can get around but I want to keep it in the family for as long as possible. It needs a good tune up and some TLC but he said that he runs fine, oh and a great paint job. When I do get him, I'm going to paint it Black. I want to file for a lost title but my dad wants to see if he can get the title back from his sis first. I would like it to be in my name, but if he wants it in his name I don't mind. Then again if I'm going to be doing all the work on it I'd like it in my name bc I don't want all my hard work going to someone else. Well we will see what happens with the truck in the days to come. Going to Balmorhea today for the Mexico Mother's Day, D says that its celebrated on the 10th. Yay I get to go swimming!!!