Lets just say today is an unhappy day

Why is it that when things start looking up things always do a 180° and shit hits the fan for me? I work hard and do what I need to in life in order to pay my bills and not be a burden to others yet life keeps knocking me down. I just want to be happy and live my awesome life.

Had a strange day

Wow just ended my day, I didn't sell Betty just yet but I do have a serious buyer. When and if I do sell Betty ill have enough money saved to put a down payment on a newer car. Also if I keep saving I should have enough to just buy a car on CL, only problem with that is that it's risky buying a car not from a dealership. I will figure it out, anyways I had a great night with J we stayed up late and watched Ink Master and drew some cool shit! I'm more motivated to keep drawing my style of tattoos. Now to learn to shade em and tattoo them how I want.

It's been a while

Can't remember the last time I made a post, well guess ill fill y'all in. I now work full time as a tattoo artist and body piercer at Primal Instinct tattoo in Odessa, Tx. I live on my own with my two roommates J and K. I have an amazing life but life is never without worry or responsibility, I pay my bills on time and make smart decisions so I won't have to rely on people but I'm not perfect. I have a new man in my life E, he treats me really good. All relationships are hard to balance out in the beginning, and man did we have a beginning ha ha. I'm noticing that my life is evolving and I am growing into my own person in this world, I once thought I was invisible and would always be that way. Not anymore, I wake up and can't wait to start the day bc I never know what to expect. Yeah sometimes life caves in on me and I find it hard to breathe but that is what makes it worth living, I've had to think about what my actions are going to cause for my future and I'm wading through all the hard work to get to the awesome little moments life has given and hopefully will keep giving to me and my friends. Who knows maybe the next time I wrote another post , my life will have another story to tell.

Seeing the world with new eyes

So being single is fun and very freeing, but that small lonely feeling keeps creeping in at night when I go to bed alone. Yeah I want someone to love and cherish in time but for now I kinda just wanna have my fun. Living with my. Roommates is great, I pay my bills and after that I do whatever the fuck I want. Now that doesn't mean I do dumb shit it just means I leave and come back when I want and I don't answer to anyone.  Freedom is great

??

Ever just wanna go deaf for a day so the noise of life will let you think?  Need another vacation,  where to??  Might just go alone this time.

Damn

Ppl see me and I'm all smiles but honestly inside I'm freaking out. I've got 3 days to make rent and then more for my bills. I would have had it all taken care of if the biker rally wasn't such a bust. I've never felt like such a failure till now, all I wanna do is drive out till the middle of a field and yell till I can't yell anymore. I really haven't cried but now I do.

Been a while

Haven't been able to post lately bc I've been busy dealing with other adventures. I don't think I have time for love or even to like someone right now. Good news is that I've got betty rolling and I'm moving in with my best friends. I see my family every now and then but not much just mainly my mom. I feel lost, like I don't know where I'm going. I took a good drive to my moms the other day and just drove and thought.  I made it this far without any man, I got all the money for betty and pushed myself to struggle and learn to tattoo. I got me here without a bf. So I asked myself, do I really need a man right now?  Yeah it would be great to not go to sleep alone every night but I just don't wanna deal with emotional drama. The only person I see myself with and not losing any drive for my tattooing is D, but that in a nutshell is a mystery. I don't know if he wants to be around long term. Time will tell right?  Just going to concentrate on my life and if he feels like he wants to be apart of my life that's on him.