Not the words I wanted to hear but needed

Told my boss at the shop I put in my 2 Weeks at work and he asked why. Kinda surprised me but now I know why, he knows I'm having trouble with some areas of my tattooing and doesn't want me to get into a situation where I can't tattoo bc I need to study and work on my drawing more and be broke. He said it would be wise to maybe work 3 days a week at work just so I'm making a for sure check every 2 Weeks. I messaged my old boss and he said he will try his hardest to get me into his branch which is closer to home and not as fucked up as the one I'm at now. I did read a tattoo book Kuma got me for my bday and learned a great deal about stuff I never thought about to ask my boss. So now that I kinda know what to ask I'm going to not hesitate to ask. I can't stop thinking of Kuma and missing him. I look at the ring he got me any chance I can lol, it's a beautiful ring but that's not why I always look at it. I can't stop looking at it bc it's from him, he gave it to me with all his love. Shows me that I really am appreciated and loved. It's no longer my life now, we are both striving for a future together and doing the necessary things to ensure our relationship survives. He surprised me when I was in Houston with him, I'm used to D acting like I was a complete stranger in public but Kuma holds my hand and doesn't hesitate to hug me for pics when there are dozens of ppl around, he even kisses me. It's all a new experience to me and I love it, I love him. Finally found the one I've deserved my whole life.

Counting down the days

Readily I count down the days to when I'll be in Houston with Kuma again. It's not the same being back home, I just don't fit in here. One thing that is really bringing me down is that my mom of all ppl is against me going full time with my tattooing. Does she think I did it as a hobby? This is my dream and I am going to achieve it. There isn't anything that will stop me from reaching it and holding me back from moving away as far as I possibly can. I don't need negative influences in my life. As it stands I am just biding my time here in midland till I have the skills and cash to move away and never look back. I know it's not going to be some fairytale when I move with Kuma but I know I won't have my dreams stomped on. Tired of having to wait on everyone and be a background person, I try to not be here as much or in my room a lot bc I just don't click well with their lifestyle. I strive for something better than settling for what I can get bc it's easy, I know I deserve a good and happy life so I'll do what it takes to get it. I was blessed with the perfect man and a huge opportunity to tattoo now I just have to work on brining to two together. I miss going to bed with Kuma next to me and waking up to his gorgeous face.

He ceases to amaze me everyday

So tonight we went to an event Kuma helps run once a month at a lil bar/club for his gaming group called gaymers. It took me a min to adjust and fall into the groove of things. I always find new ways to love this man everyday. I love being introduced as his bf, but hate that everyone acts like it was an impossible thing for him. He's a total catch and I'm the lucky one to have him in my life.

Had a great day with the man I love

No zoo bc they closed at 4 today rather than the usual 6pm so we went to walk in the Japanese gardens for a few hours. met one of his good friends and be was awesome enough to take pics of us. Can't imagine being with anyone else now or any other time. For the longest time I had only known a man who acted like I wasn't his partner in public, now that I'm with Kuma he isn't afraid to hug me in front of anyone or kiss me when I need it most. We had a moment today where I wasn't ok and we talked and all I wanted was for him to hug me and tell me I'm his one and only. He did just that and didn't hesitate to hold me tight and kiss me, I needed reassurance from him. And yeah I swore to never cry again after I was hurt so bad, I let one slip. I feel comfortable with him so idk how my goodbye is going to be like. I don't want to leave his side now that I'm here. Zoo tomorrow yay finally!!

Yay I love him

Be jealous bc this is what I got to wake up to this morning.

Almost there

I'm so excited to be so close to being in Houston with Kuma, tomorrow is the big day yay!!! Can't stop listening to romantic love songs , what can I say I'm in love lol. I have gone through so much to get to this point and now that I have a great man and my tattoo lifestyle is taking off I couldn't be happier. Yesterday on my way to the mall I drove past D's job and I thought of him but not the "I miss him sense" more like I hope he is able to stop letting his family run his life and do what he wants without regrets and just be happy. He did me wrong but I was raised to not hold a grudge, I have my happiness he deserves his.. Just not with me lol bc I have my perfect man. I love my nose piercing but I free tired of the curved barbell so I switched it to a captive ring instead like a bull ring ha ha well I am a Taurus so it suits me, I also got a sweet Batman bellybutton ring. I wanna switch my nipple rings to bars now bc sometimes the rings flip up and I hate it. Oh that reminds me that I'm going to get a tattoo when I get back from Houston, been itching for a new one but didn't wanna travel to see Kuma with a new tat.

Got my septum pierced

I took a lot of thinking and we'll I got it done I have been wanting this piercing for a long time. I asked Kuma what he thought and he said go for it basically . I love it so much, yeah its a pain now but when its healed it'll be worth it.