Part 2

Yeah it's been a few days sorry I started working on my Betty and didn't remember to write part 2. After the dance we went back to the camper and he made a really good chicken dish, I like his spur of the moment cooking skills. our first night in bed together was well magnificent! I love his furry chest and cuddling up with him. He is very sweet and gentle, makes me feel like I'm the only person in the world. The way he kisses and touches me makes my heart race, so let's just say our first night was perfect ;) . then waking up next to him justifying that it wasn't all a dream started the day perfectly. We then had breakfast that Kuma made, I'll admit he basically did everything the while trip I asked if he needed me to do anything but he said no. think all I was able to do was stir gravy and throw some trash ha ha. I think after that it's kinda a blur of pure happiness. I love the way he kisses me and makes me feel and we connect so well, I find myself opening up and talking to him about things I'd normally keep to myself. When I'm with him I feel normal and not like some outcast for loving cartoons and video games still. He is by far the most beautiful person I've ever seen inside and out. in the short amount of time I've been with him he has opened my eyes and shown me that I'm worthy of happiness and someone who isn't going to cheat on me. we watched movies and played video games together. He is even apart of a gamer group back in his town, how fucking awesome is that right. He has the most beautiful eyes that I could get used to seeing everyday. When he hugs me and squeezes me in his arms and pulls me in for a kiss I just melt. I've let go of my past and moved on from the pain, I have had time to heal and love myself and realize that I am happy alone. With that being said he makes me happier than I already am so why would I ever wanna let that go? I wanted to shower with him but sadly the shower was way to small to fit us both. next time we will for sure! Did I mention that he looks fucking amazing naked but that's all you get bc he's mine to look at I'm not sharing lol. My walls are crumbling down for him and I'm I'm with that. The hardest part was when we had to part ways. I didn't want to leave him, I almost shed a few tears but I'm not ready to let myself be that weak just yet. We have agreed that what we have is worth hanging on and trying a long distance relationship, I'm deeply committed to giving it a try and I know he is too. nothing has changed since I got back, he still txt and calls me and we Skype when we can..that shows me that he really is in it. Already trying to plan our next trip, it looks like we might not be together till end of march or mid April but you know  what they say right..."absence makes the heart grow fonder" I dream of him and he is in my mind and heart throughout the days, I had a friend tell me that I'm not a dater but more of a true relationship guy. He's right bc all I wanna do is share my life with someone who supports me and I support them. Don't think I can ever go back to my past even if it came knocking on my door bc of my Kuma, he is my future.

It's official

<p>So as you all know I went camping with Kuma. Here are all the details well most of them bc I don't kiss and tell. I got there Thursday afternoon and he had already been there an hour ahead of me and he got everything put away from his luggage to the forks and spoons. I couldn't stop my heart from racing when we had our first hug and kiss and boy did he notice it, I was kind of embarrassed at first but realized he was just as excited. I couldn't believe I was in the arms of the man I had been wanting for 2 months, no more txting Skype or voxer bc I had him in person all to myself for the weekend. He is perfect! We went to town to get some groceries for us to eat, I was still wanting to rock out in the jetta I had rented from work so I sweet talked him into taking it instead of his car ha ha. We picked at each other playfully about who gets to control the radio and he let me win, I wanted to let him hear what I liked while I held his hand the while way to town. Man that was pure bliss just being with him and feeling him. I felt so comfortable with him that I let him hear my horrible singing voice, hope I didn't scar him for life. We shopped then headed back to camp. We got everything put away and decided to lay out on the hammock for a while and we kissed. Then just as the sun was close to setting we took a little walk of the camp grounds and finally watched the sun set while on a little Dock. It was so magical with the frogs croaking in the background and fish splashing. He then puts on slow music and gets me to slow dance with him, I was like Wtf in my head. Yeah that confirms it that he's the one for me by how he makes me feel and how he doesn't hold back from me. .... Off to bed you'll get part 2 tomorrow muah

Got my haircut

I'm glad I finally got my haircut thanks to a old school friend , now I look good for Kuma this weekend on our camping trip

Past haunting me again fml

I was having a great day yesterday when my voxer decided to notify me that it added my x d and his profile pic was of him and his butt ugly bf. Seriously if your going to replace me at least make sure he's hotter than me, nice way to down grade. So back to the story, I got upset bc I've been doing great without him and I had even deleted him from my life as in deleting his messages and emails. I have gotten so close with Kuma that I don't need my past popping up out of knowhere. He made me feel better like always, I've just gotta let this like this not get to me. It also helped me decide to pour all my checks into my car after my trip with Kuma and transfer to another city. Hmm if this thing with Kuma goes right I'll aim for Houston and find a room to rent with someone.

Always something right?

So the apprenticeship is getting cut short bc my buddy is moving to a different shop so when he leaves I leave bc the owner is a complete took who isn't a very good artist who has fooled himself into thinking he's one of the best around. So if I can't go with mils to the new shop then I have no choice but to try another one closer to home and see what happens. Ok now to a different subject. I've been getting to know Kuma a lot better lately and so far it's good, we have had some differences but I lime that he talks them out with me and all returns to the awesomeness. I wake up with him my thoughts and sleep with him in my dreams, I like him a lot. If it doesn't work out I will be a little hurt but nothing that will kill me ha ha, but if it works out like I want it to I'm going to do what I can to hang onto him. There is a distance issue but one I'm willing to change in time, if there is something solid with us I will definitely make the time to be with him when I can and besides we txt and Skype all the time now so it's not like a lot will change after I come home from our trip. I want to get in at least a years worth of tattooing in a shop before I try to move to one out of town. but I have to get into a shop to even start that dream lol. Work work work that's all I can do. until next time love you guys.

The river

So idk how many of you have started watching the new show on ABC called the river., but I just watched the first 2 eps on hulu and I love it so far. I like the mythology and magical mystery of it all.

Oh the possibilities

So I've got my job at enterprise to bring in the money for my few bills and my apprenticeship to fuel my tattooing passion. I'm working on moving to a closer store in midland so it will be easier to get to work and the shop bc it's like 5 mins from my house. My bro also wants me to worm with him at his job doing locksmithing but if I even pass my background check I'll have to get off at 5 instead of 2 and take less hours on my apprenticeship. I need money to get Betty running so it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make for a bit till she's running. I'm also glad bc well I have met someone kinda lol, things are becoming more and more serious with kumo (my camping partner on the 23rd) . He has really grown on me and been a great positive influence on my views of my life. I'm really looking forward to spending the last weekend of Feb with him. He and I had a serious talk last night of where we stand bc I've had so many guys flake out on me. I like the speed we are going at, I can get used to this for a while till I'm done with my apprenticeship and have the ability to move to any shop I want in a year or two. Did I mention that his voice is to die for, he relaxes me when he speaks to me and he is gorgeous inside and out. I'm truly lucky to have met him. So for now the possibilities are endless but they all look Great especially if they include kumo.