The river

So idk how many of you have started watching the new show on ABC called the river., but I just watched the first 2 eps on hulu and I love it so far. I like the mythology and magical mystery of it all.

Oh the possibilities

So I've got my job at enterprise to bring in the money for my few bills and my apprenticeship to fuel my tattooing passion. I'm working on moving to a closer store in midland so it will be easier to get to work and the shop bc it's like 5 mins from my house. My bro also wants me to worm with him at his job doing locksmithing but if I even pass my background check I'll have to get off at 5 instead of 2 and take less hours on my apprenticeship. I need money to get Betty running so it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make for a bit till she's running. I'm also glad bc well I have met someone kinda lol, things are becoming more and more serious with kumo (my camping partner on the 23rd) . He has really grown on me and been a great positive influence on my views of my life. I'm really looking forward to spending the last weekend of Feb with him. He and I had a serious talk last night of where we stand bc I've had so many guys flake out on me. I like the speed we are going at, I can get used to this for a while till I'm done with my apprenticeship and have the ability to move to any shop I want in a year or two. Did I mention that his voice is to die for, he relaxes me when he speaks to me and he is gorgeous inside and out. I'm truly lucky to have met him. So for now the possibilities are endless but they all look Great especially if they include kumo.

Liking the new apprenticeship

So item been a few days since I started my second apprenticeship and it's going smoothly. There are some major differences in how the shops are run. This one is very clean and professional, I learned how to sterilize tubes and grips. I like that my boss man is warming up to the fact that I'm not the average apprentice bc I already have some good tattoos under my belt. He let's me stencil out his tats more now and even used my shading techniques on one tattoo. Guess he wasn't able to grasp the shading for it, so he had me do it. The paperwork system is way diff too, it's paperless and not difficult . he days it's 6 months before I am able to learn any tattooing but I think that will shorten bc I'm already good just needs some tweaking. he asked me to email him my most recent tattoos so that makes me think he will bump off a few months

Yay

I'm so happy that I got a new apprenticeship but the only down side is that I can't tattoo for about 6 months. It's in Odessa again but a bit closer since I work at the airport.

Been a while since my last post

<p>I've been so busy and tired lately from work and having to think about tattoos. I asked for a few days off in Feb so I can take a camping trip so I can clear my head. I've started viewing tattooing as work instead of my passion and happiness, it's time to get back my appreciation for the art. I am liking this freedom to travel wherever I want now that I'm single, yeah I talk to guys but I'm not looking to settle down or hook up guess it's just nice knowing I'm wanted lol. Looking forward to going camping, last time I went camping was when I was with d and it was 4th of July I think and we got rained on and had nacho with us. So needles to say it wasn't a very good trip bc we ended up staying with his mom at her house. D wasn't very big on doing anything active like that so I held back from asking to take trips. Pathetic right but that's the past, and my future looks better. Haven't txt D in a while now, don't think I'm going to anymore. Just seems like a waist of time now that I think about it.

I like having friends

So I've made some friends and been spending a good amount of time with them. I'm single but so what I'm happy lol.

Ever feel like crying or yelling till you can't anymore?

Lately I haven't been feeling like myself, I feel a little depressed. I'm not motivated to do anything. I feel like crying for some reason but can't bc the one shoulder I felt comfortable crying on was D's and we all know he isn't here not does he really care to have me in his life anymore. I want to just drive out to the middle of nowhere and just till I can't tell anymore. I am tired of going everyday thinking about him and that I'm not by his side.