Finally

I got a call from Enterprise and its the call I've been needing. I got the jod and I start tomorrow, from what I gather its a set schedule Fri-Tues with Wed and Thurs off. Its only $8 and hour but hey that's better than making $0 a day. First things first get my phone and bronco paid for, then start investing in fixing my black betty. Oh that's what I've decided on calling my bronco I'm going to paint it black and call her Black Betty :) I'll let you guys know how the job goes tomorrow.

Damn time change

I almost forgot that the time changed, I feel so off today. First of all I've never been a huge fan of colder weather and now it gets dark faster. I got turned down from one job because of my backround, it was a real bummer and blow to my job hunt. Thankfully I have N to pick me back up and keep a smile on my face. I love that he supports me in whatever it is I do, he doesn't judge me for the situation I'm in. I'm not feeling very happy about Enterprise, guess you can say I'm just waiting for the rejection letter or phone call. I need to find something so I can stop being so damn broke. I wish I could be so lucky to have the skills my friend F has and passed my tattoo test in 2 months then I would be able to work at any tattoo shop. I just have to keep trying my hardest and keep believing that my dream will come true someday soon. Until then I'm going to try and make money by any means other than selling drugs or my ass lol, my bro said he'll help me get some tattoo supplies so I can tattoo out of the house. Its a great chance to make some money that I really need. I'm thinking about it more and more everyday. I'll keep you guys posted on what happens.

Had one of the best nights I've had in a while

Its quietly official lol, N is my new man and I couldn't be happier. We spent a great night together at his house. I feel so comfortable with him and get this "100% honesty" feeling from him. We kissed, cuddled, and well you know what else lol Twice!!!!!!!! He's amazing at what he does and he takes charge in the right moments. I like hearing him speak about his day and his life. I can honestly say that I see myself with him. He's that special to have broken me out of my slump and saving me. I owe him a lot.

Its not official yet but.....

So I let N know how I feel about him and what we could have together and he feels the same way. He's taking me to the movies tonight and we're going to talk about the potential relationship. He's been hurt like I have its just that mine is more recent but that still doesn't mean he isn't just as hurt as I am. I know what its like to be lied to and so does he, I know that I will always be honest and faithful. I'm taking a risk that he will be to. I like him so much so that I'm willing to put myself out there and be vulnerable. More to come hopefully great news to share with you guys.

Am I ready to take the plunge again????

So things with N are going great and well today he asked me what I think about us potentially being a couple. I thought about it and I couldn't find anything negative to point out. He's been 100% honest with me from the start and usually I find something about the guys I date to be wrong but with him I can't. I don't find myself thinking about D anymore I just think about N. I smile everytime I see him or think about him, he makes me feel so damn comfortable. I think I'm ready to put myself out there again, its been one hell of a journey to get to where I am now. Things are slowly starting to get better and I have N to thank because when I was sad and ready to just throw in the towel he didn't let me stay down he made me smile and see that things always get better. If things take a more serious turn I'm not going to turn and run the other way, I'm going to allow myself to be vulnerable with him and let him know that I am ready to be with him. I just hope he feels the same way. I'm not saying we're going to get the wedding bells ready more like being exclusive instead of just dating. I'd proudly call him mine if he calls me his :)

A bit worried

So I had a job interview today and it went great, I didn't expect to find out that the manager was a fellow tattoo artist. She was so happy to find another person who knew about tattoos other than "oh they look cool" lol, we talked for about 30 mins. talking about tattooing and completely forgot the interview. She then realized that I was suppose to get an interview and just decided to pass me and send my backround check off. They only thing that worries me is that my backround isn't the best in the world, I just hope it goes through because I really need this job for the money. She told me its strictly seasonal and I told her that I wasn't trying to be rude but that's all I really wanted and to not have a career out of her job lol. She knew I want to be a tattoo artist so she didn't mind. Its $9.50 and hour overnights, I need this. Wish me luck guys :)

Happy Halloween

Best Halloween so far, I went on a mini date with N and had an amazing time. I like spending time with him and holding his hand when we're driving. I'm super comfortable with him. He took me for ice cream and we sat outside on a bench close and just talked. I love the fact that he's ok with showing that he's gay in public, its not like we were kissing  just sitting close and not caring what the small minded ppl of West Texas thought. This little girl came up to us and asked if she could take our picture because we reminded her of her uncles, I'm pretty sure that wasn't the case but we let her anyways. We've already scheduled another date for Friday to go see the new Harold and Kumar movie, oh yeah I almost forgot that I have a job interview at Toys R Us as an overnight stocker. I really hope I get the position because I need the money BAD. I hope it doesn't interfeer with my date on Friday. I hope eveyone had a great Halloween this year, be safe and have fun. Keep yall posted on how things are going with N :)