One month down!!!!!!

So I finally completed my first month at the shop, I'm so happy that I got this far. I look back on my older posts of when I was eagerly waiting for them to call me. I remember being so nervous to take my drawing test that I almost threw up. I recall when my boss man told me I was good enough to become an apprentice in his shop, I almost cried but didn't want to look like some punk ass. My first day I was fucking nervous like the first day of school all over again, I remember being so scared to talk to any of the artists or other apprentices. I've grown to love them all and confide in them when I need help with something. I've seen numerous apprentices come and take the test to only throw this opporunity away. I love every minute of it and even though some times are hard and feel like they are breaking you down its all worth it. It makes you stronger. I was recently promoted to lead apprentice so that means its my job to direct the apprentices in whos doing what. I like it because I've held manager positions before so I'm used to it. I don't just sit on the sidelines and watch them work, I get into the cleaning with them and sign waving too. The title lead doesn't change all that much for me, just means that if they have a problem they tell me and I'll fix it and just be in charge of things so that they can focus on perfecting their drawings skills and learing from the artists. I see potential in everyone of them, its up to them to have the drive to reach the end and become a pro tattooist. I know I have the drive and the passion. I have made some bad ass friends at the shop and we have become a tight crew, I know what to expect from them and they know what to expect from me so we work smoothly together. I'm happy where I'm at now, and having these people around me has really helped me move on with my life.

Yeah it sucks playing around with all the guys at the shop, it just makes me wanna fuck so bad ugh why me. They have no idea what they do to me

So funny how when you think something is going so well it all goes in another direction in a heartbeat. Glad i didn't open my heart

Super Fucking horny, sucks being single with trust issues and not into one night stands :-( could really use some all night sex with a hot man

Just saw the perfect bear today, getting a tattoo so hot!!!!

No love in my life

I hate that I can't trust any men right now, I see a lot of great guys and have talked to a few as well but everytime something in the back of my head says "don't trust them, its only a matter of time" so I just politely decline any invites. I'm just not ready and I've also got my apprenticeship to concentrate on. My friend from work said he wanted to try and hook me up with one of his friends from work but I just don't have the time, money, or the trust for that. I really appreciate him trying to help my single situation but for now I'll just have to turn my lonelyness into something positive. I see myself moving away from this town once I'm done with my apprenticeship, I want to stay with the shop for a while. I hope they open one up in my town by the time I'm done with my training, the 20 min drive to and from Odessa is long. Love will have to wait, oh and besides the men are sure to be much better when I move away.

Hate this

I'm sick, in the middle of a fucking drought I'm sick. WTF!!!! Anyways I had to take a day off rom the shop because I can't be sick and working around people with fresh tattoos because I could spread it to them. I don't want to get the other apprentices sick either. I'm taking meds right now and hoping that I'm all better by tomorrow because I don't want to miss another day at the shop.