Hoping to land a job soon

So I had a job interview on Thursday and I am keeping my fingers crossed about getting it. I like the details about the job functions and what I would be doing, there are some opportunities to advance in the company so I like that. The pay is good enough to fund my tattoo gear and pay some pretty good bills that need paying. I know I will have to catch up on my car payments and also get my phone bill paid off so I can turn it back on and have an actual phone instead of this crummy prepaid cell phone. I'm not going to get my hopes up for nothing but I can still have some optimism about it. I need something really bad so lets hope this works out for me.

WTF

So I get home from an interview and D asks me how it went, so I simply replied " it went fine." Then he stares at me for almost a minute until I ask him, "are you okay babe?" and he said "no nothing is wrong." so I leave to start making us some food to eat. Well he has the radio on and starts looking at some videos so he mutes it for a good 10 minutes. I take that as a cue that I can use it, so I get to the radio and he raises his voice at me telling me that he is still using it and is going to use it after he watches his videos. I said okay and went to get my mp3 player and listen to it while I cook and put up some laundry. When I started getting the laundry ready to put up he comes into the room and closes the door and asks me why I was ignoring him since I got home. I was so lost because I asked him if anything was wrong with him earlier and he said nothing and now he is complaining that I am ignoring him. Well we started arguing about everything and he starts telling me that I don't clean like he wants basically and telling me that if I wasn't going to work I have to clean the apt for him. Basically telling me that if I don't make money I have to be his Bitch. I hate that he acts like this but I just suck up his mean words because I can't afford to stand up to him and be kicked out. My mothers house is the only place I have to go. I love him but can't take being talked down to, I won't deny that I can't clean like he likes because I'm not him. I try my hardest to look for job, shit I just came from an interview before he started fighting with me. He gets me to the point where I just want to break something and yell at the top of my lungs, then when I do he always makes me feel worse and like shit. I hate taking it but what can I do, I just hope that when I get a job he will back off and finally just let us be happy. If it doesn't change I fear that we will leave each other again, he already says that I act like I don't live there like he wants me to say "yes I want to leave." I want to stay with him, but he needs to back off me and stop putting me down so much. I know what to do just hate the consequences of it all. I just wish we could be in the same room and not fight.

Homemaker

So D gave me a choice, he said I can become a complete house husband and not have to find a job anymore or find a job. Well I like the idea of staying at home and making it nice and comfy for him when he comes home from work, but I don't know if its for me. I started sending out applications and resumes and well I got an immediate call back from one place today. It is a drug screening job that is based in Odessa, TX but the position I applied for is in Midland, TX where I drive around and test people. I don't know all the details about this job but it seems fun because I will get a company vehicle to drive around all day and collect pp from random strangers ha ha. I have to go to their office tomorrow at 1:30pm so I hope D has time to take me.

Showcasing my work that I have done so far.

So I decided to post my art work that I have done so far, I am putting together a portfolio to show off to future tattoo artists for an apprenticeship. I hope whoever looks at my blog enjoys my drawings :)

Complicated

Lately I have been listening to Rihanna's song Complicated, it makes me think about my relationship with Daniel. She really hit the nail on the head with this one song lol :) Its so complicated between Daniel and me because of all the stuff we have put each other through but we both can't ever find the strength to leave each other. I love him more than any other man I have ever loved, hope he is really the one for me. I don't think I would want to live without him even if he is complicated :)

Wood burning

I used to do this as a hobby and to make a little extra money during the holidays and football season. Hmm I just might pick it back up again!!

Constant Reminder

I often look at tattoo machine kits to help remind me that I have a goal and need to do what I can to reach it.