New Mag

Yay I just got back from Wal-Mart with D and he bought me a new tattoo magazine. I am so happy that I got the newest issue but what would make me really happy would be the newest issue of Tattoo Flash, it's my favorite tattoo magazine out there. So ready to study up on new techniques and widen my drawing potential. Tattoo career here I come. Now I just need to get some tattoo gear together and start my non-professional apprenticeship with a friend of mine, but in order to do that I need to get myself a job even a part time job would do. I have to call a few places on Monday, I know I wouldn't mind going back to Sam's Club again. I was there for a complete year before I left and I loved working there but I left because they kept trying to make me do carts, I didn't sign up for that position. They didn't give me prior notice of what they wanted me to work that day because I came in wearing some slightly heavy jeans and a black t-shirt on a hot day where the temperature was 95+, they didn't even offer to let me go home and change when I only lived 5 mins. away from work. I felt very disrespected and disposable, but now I hear that the managers that wanted me to go outside have left the store. So I feel like if I were to go back I will not have the same problem, so here goes nothing.

Merry X-mas

I had a wonderful time spending X-mas with my family. I am glad that the whole family is here, my two older brothers and sister and finally back together under one roof along with their own families. I loved playing Loteria with them and taking my sister's money lol. I do miss D and am kinda hurt that he didn't stay with me, I am feeling really sad and low right now. I figured that he would have at least called me more or even just stayed with me. I just feel like shit right now, and very lonely. Just feel like going home and crying myself to sleep, don't know if I have ever felt let down like this in a long time. Just want to go home and forget the bad part of the day, I don't know if D can make up for this ever. Honestly I feel like the only thing I can do right now to make myself feel better is to just cut the pain away.

yay, what a successful party it was

We just got back from Daniel's X-mas party at his job, I think it was a good turn out. Not a lot of employees from the day crew came to it but I liked all the food that they had. The brisket was perfectly cooked and the ham was so damn moist and delicious, I helped him pass out the x-mas presents. Even though I didn't get a thing I am glad that we got to show his employees that we care and taht we can give back to them for being such great and hard workers. The clean up was not hard well because I didn't do any of it ha ha ha. Can't wait till the next one, going to make it even better for him, and all the hard working employees that help keep his checks rolling in. Merry X-mas Babe!!!

X-mas

So I am going to miss D this X-mas, because he is going to be spending this years X-mas with his family. I'm not saying that he should not spend it with them its just that we always switch every year and we spent it with them last year and almost died in the process of getting there. I thought it was my families turn this year, guess not since he told me he might not come back till the day after X-mas. So I don't get to see him X-mas eve or even X-mas day, which is going to suck a lot. I suppose he deserves to be where he wants because he is a grown man, and I did leave to Dallas for a week and we were broken up for 2 weeks. I am saddened but whatever happens happens I suppose.

Bro

So I heard from my sister today that my aunt B took my brother C's ex boss to his apt in San Antonio and they took his Jeep. My brother just welcomed his baby girl into this world on 12-11-2010 and now they take his only means on transportation around San Antonio and not to mention he used that for work. I really can't believe that my fucked up aunt would stoop so low as to do that to him all because he didn't have enough money to bring back your fucking trailer that you don't even FUCKING use you dumb chain smoking, beer chugging, life ruining, desperate to stay in the light by fucking up other peoples lives SOB. I know that if I were to run into you somewhere I will act as though you are dead. I would also like to point out to the world that you are always suppose to have your family's back and take into notice that your nephew just had a kid and didn't have a way to return your FUCKING trailer you selfish old dried up fucking prune. You act as though your whole fucking life would be ruined if you did not get your trailer back. Glad that this whole ordeal has a golden light at the end of the tunnel, because I get to have my brother and his new little family here for X-mas.

I'm Back

So I moved back to Midland to be closer to my family and well D of course, I didn't realize how much I would miss him when I left to Dallas. He sent me money to get back to him, it shows that he really does love me. I am grateful to have him in my life and I am going to work on keeping him in my life. I will hopefully find a job soon, I had an over the phone interview with At&T the other day. So I am keeping my head held high.

Curse their blood

For each wrong you've done may the pain come,
for this disgrace you have shown upon your blood,
I curse your family to a life of nothingness,
I call the triple goddess to my side to help me in this matter,
take their love and happiness from their hearts,
I bring the horned god to my sight,
reign down upon their lives bringing pain and suffering,
I give you the power to sever the ties that bond us by blood,
no more will I call you apart of me,
Take this curse with all my anger....the spirits of the past will haunt your soul,
I give my blood to stain yours,
I make it thee,
So mote it be.