Dixie

I feel bad because I had to take Dixie to the pound today, she was just to much to handle because she was so active and needy. I tried really hard to find her a nice dog shelter that would not kill her but I had no luck. I regret taking her there but I had no other choice besides we were going to have to pay another pet deposit of $450 and we did not have the money.

Dixie

So my brother finally moved all his stuff to his new apt and he had to leave behind one of his wonderful dogs, her name is Dixie. If I have never mentioned before but I once had the best dog on the world named Diamond and Dixie is the spitting image of her. Yeah she does have white fur as well as black but her shape and personality is almost a perfect twin of my sweet Diamond. Well we have Ramon and he has been acting crazy as of late, like pissing on our clothing and bedding. We have always given him as much attention as we always have. We are going to make a tough decision to ask our apts to possibly switch Ramon out for Dixie. D is starting to really have bad reactions toward Ramon also, so I believe its best to find Ramon a new home. Besides we have always been dog people. Now we have Doofy, Nacho, and now Dixie. I hope someone isn't going to tell me about any other dogs that are cute. Ugh I just can't say no sometimes. Well I'll let you guys know if we are allowed to switch the cat out for the doggy. Sorry Ramon but you gotta go.

When

I miss my mother, even though I don't live very far from her I hardly ever see her. I miss seeing her face, especially when she smiles and we share a joke or two. I will miss those times when she is gone, I want so many more memories but there isn't anything I can do about it. I wish I could stop time and spend a whole day with her. I would never let go of her hand, if she leaves me who will I make a cake for on Thanksgiving Day or give a card to on Mothers Day. Its not fair that she has to leave me, Its just not fair. Its selfish for her to just start leaving me, without even trying to spend time with me. Doesn't she want to spend time with me with all of her family right now, but instead she spends most of her time with another family tacking care of someone else. It hurts so much, I just want to trade my life for hers. If you ever read this mom, Please don't leave me. If you have to leave then promise you will say goodbye

A bust

Aww our Halloween Party is going to be a complete bust, I invited my family and D's family to come but D's family besides K that already lives here didn't show up. Its okay though and some of my family isn't going to come either. I wanted my mother to come but she said she was going to have to work all night, that sucks but I just want her to be happy.

Its been a while

Yeah so it has been a few days since I have posted up anything, So the Family Halloween Party  is tomorrow night at 7 I believe. We have been kind of broke lately because of the move into the apt and having to deal with all the new bills and apt fees like the cat fee and ect. So I am going to be a pirate for Halloween and D is going to be Cesar. I have no idea what K is going to be though, I told her to be Kim Kardasian by stuffing her ass and boobs a lot and wear a skank dress. I hope my mother and father come to the party, they never went to our last apt.

Balmorhea

Here in Balmorhea watching some tv with my in-laws, going to El Paso in the AM so happy to be going to the Zoo. This family is so fun because they are loud and just completely different than my family. I may not be able to always understand them when I am around them but I feel apart of them.

Going to El Paso, TX

Okay so we are about to go to El Paso, Tx this weekend for our nieces 14th birthday. Wow I can still see her as a little girl that would help me take care of her sisters when I used to live with them in Az. Today we are just going to travel to Balmorhea and stay the night there at D's mom's house and then go to El Paso in the morning...like 6am Ugh but its okay. I have not been to El Paso in forever, I think the last time was when my grandmother died. I really want to go to the Zoo ha ha ha, I totally want to see some animals. I'm going to have to talk D into taking me, hopefully its just me and him because I want some alone time with him but knowing him he is going to wanna take his nephews and nieces along and I'll be stuck baby sitting like always. Its not that I don't like the kids its just that well I'm not a child person. I guess it has to do with me having to share D with anyone else, I can't help it I'm selfish. I want all his attention on me because I want to memories to look back on when we grow older. I'm going to take some pics and videos of the trip and hopefully of the ZOO ha ha, so I'll post a few. Well I've gotta get the stuff ready to load up in the truck.