Willow Smith

Okay this lil one is a star already and she is going to be a bigger star in time, if you haven't heard her song 'Whip My Hair' then you need to. The video is so good too. She may be 9 but honey she rocks that hair and has a great voice. I'm rooting for her to beat that lesbian Justin B.

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Okay I applied at Big 5 for the manager position and well here is how it went. They liked my job history and then he asked me if I was willing to relocate. The way that they do it is they train you in a manager position and ship you off to work in another town, he said it might be somewhere in Cali. Okay I'm not going to lie, it sounds great to be able to move to a new town and experience new things. Now I'm in a LTR and well I can't just leave my family behind especially my mother, and my new cute little apt family of me and D and K and don't forget Ramon (D's cat). I want to be a tattoo artist and that's what made me think about considering taking the offer of managing a store in Cali. oh well there is always going to be another opportunity right. I hope so!! Well that's how that went at Big 5.

Gay movies that I love

Okay I have already stated that I love Netflix, but I love netflix on the Wii because of all the gay themed movies I can watch. Right now D and me are watching The Brokenhearts Club, but some of my other favorite movies are: To Wong Foo thanks for Everything from Julie Newmar, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Connie & Carla, Its a Boy Girl Thing, TransAmerica, Queens and so on and so on. I wish D would just fucking get over his insecurities and just let us have some fucking friends for once. I wanna have some friends over for dinner and a movie or just have a small get together on the weekend. I'm tired of sitting at home all alone with nobody to talk to, I'd like to be able to get out of the house and hang out while D is at work and have him meet up with us after work. But until he realizes that I'm not going anywhere with anybody even if they are hotter or nicer than D, I just want us to have a healthy relationship that includes friends that we can talk to when we are mad at each other or have great conversations about funny shit that has happened to us or just about anything. Man oh man I have gotten so fucking lonely since I gave up having friends in order to have a life with D, sometimes it doesn't seem worth it anymore but I always seem to just move on.

I am going to start applying at places to get a job UGH

So things are not working out how I planned them to be, but its okay right? I mean I do have a roof over my head and food in the fridge. I just have to work harder to get what I need, maybe a good paying job is what I need to get myself started on what I need to start what I truly want for myself. Well here goes nothing.

Netflix

I like that we have netflix because well its great that we get to watch a whole variety of movies that we would never have known about. Right now we are watching a funny but very strange movie about the mob, its got a gay twist to it. I'm so ready for Halloween this year, we are having a party to celebrate our new apt.

Sunday Sunday Sunday

Its Sunday everyone and well its a great day to be alive like any other day I suppose. I started my day out with watching Kloe and Courtney take Miami with K, I had no idea that it was such an addicting show. Well this weekend we are going to be going to El Paso for my nieces 14th birthday, wow just another year and we will be throwing her a quince. I feel like I might be apart of the family more and more now, before I would just sit there and they would talk spanish and I would just stare into nothingness while they talked. Now they include me in the conversations and they don't make a fuss about translating for me as if they had been doing it their whole lives for me. Plus when we already have some history between us, I have known his family for about four years now. They are so close with each other, they are almost the complete opposite of my family. They are SUPER loud but care for each other in a special way that makes me wish my family was closer like them, don't get me wrong okay I love my family but they are not that close. My second eldest brother moved out of the house when he was 16 and we hardly ever talk to him. my oldest brother is around now but he comes and goes like no ones business, now my sister is a very different story. She is great, and I'm glad she is there with my mom right now. I live on the other side of town and don't have a vehicle to be getting around to see her everyday. Hopefully that will all change soon when I get my tattoo guns and supplies, I'll be a tattoo guy and be able to afford what I need to succeed in life.

Okay its been three days

So in the beginning of the year like Feb. I got a car and up until July I was able to make the payments, now that I have no job I can't make the payments anymore so my oldest brother R has taken over payments. So the payment on the car is $300 every 13th of every month for the next two years, well his first payment he was 13 days late. Now he is late again and I'm afraid that its going to mess up my credit a lot, I made him sign a contract saying that if he isn't able to make the payments I will make them for him and until he pays me back I will have custody of the car. Now I talked to my sis and she made it seem like I was being a bad guy for wanting to do that in order to protect my credit. My mother on the other hand told me to do what I need to do, I love my brother but honestly he isn't the most reliable guy in the world. I'm glad i made him sign a contract even though he is blood because he isn't concerned with my credit just the hood rats he sleeps with. If anyone is reading this can you please give me your insight to this topic. How do I deal with getting my brother to pay up with out fucking up our brotherly bonds?